10/14/2000 - Marry J. For sure the light of my life and all that other mushy stuff.
2003 - Pregnancy scare. Period is a few days late, and I'm normally like clockwork. More excited than terrified. Period shows up a few days later.
2005 - See first RE. Get tested. IUI #1. BFN
2005 - 2008 - I'm still young. It could still happen, right?
2008 - See 2nd RE. He suggests IVF. I don't think it's necessary.
2009 - Lap. Polyp and some light tissue removed. I'm ready to get pregnant!
January 2010 - BFF announces pregnancy. Cycle into despair. Begin therapy and intermittent acupuncture with the Chinese Devil.
Summer 2010 - Clomid, cysts, IUI's (two, I think) and nothing to show for it.
November 2010 - IVF #1, First Beta: 165
12/16/10 - First ultrasound. No baby. Ultrasound a few days later shows a teeny empty sac.
12/22/10 - First D & C.
January 2011 - Last appt. with the Chinese Devil who lovingly informs me that my miscarriage was a result of "poor quality eggs", and that if I really want to get pregnant, I need to be fully committed, thereby implying that the thousands of dollars I've spent with her have been a waste.
January 2011 - Start seeing new accupuncturist weekly. I think she's Jewish, so I'm worried about her authenticity, but she's absolutely wonderful and I love her.
January -March 2011 - Sadness, depression, and lots of crying.
April/May 2011 - IVF #2. First Beta: 36. Second Beta: 85.6. Third Beta: 220. First Ultrasound: 2 sacs, one with fetal pole and yolk sac, the other too tiny to tell. Second Ultrasound: 2 Beautiful Heartbeats. I'm expecting twins! Third Ultrasound: Missed Abortion
5/27/11 - Second D & C.
6/6/11 - Post - Op with RE scheduled.
6/23/11 - 2nd Opinion Scheduled.
June 2011 - Losing my mind and wondering if I'll ever take a baby home. One that belongs to me and that I have't snatched from the supermarket. Don't pretend it's never crossed your mind.
